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 The world of Elisia

(not complete -I never finished it...)

introducing...

The hall is cold and dark.

At the end of the hall there is a door. She cant hardly see it but she knows it...

She walks a long time in the small hall.

An old smell is surrounding her.. It tells her vague about secrets.

A few autumn leaves are circling on the floor. She feels the cold of the stones on her bare feet. Suddenly she is with the door...

She touch it. It feels so solid.. The door is closed.

Now its not the time to open it.

 

Elisia opens her eyes. She lays so comfortable in her bed. At her feet the old cat Mayra sleeps undisturbing.. Slowly she rises a bit and take a look in her small room. A candle in a niche shows her that everything is right.. Nothing is wrong.  

She turns a bit and close her eyes. Soon she is sleeping again.

Softly as the wind Elisia walks though the halls of the church, sometimes hearing fragments of gothic singing. She listen to it.

The church is a magical place in time and space and its guardian is Gar the Gargoyle who protects. Connected with the stones of the chuch Gar is usually found outside above the frontdoor, seeing the far away stars.  Mostly Gar is the first who see the night makes place for the day. Gar can only work in the night. Sunlight stones him.

Curled up in a corner of her bed sleeps Mayra, the old, black cat. Mayra is old and spend much of her time in sleep but when she is awake her eyes are full of wisdom and when she speaks everyone listen to her. Elisia sees her fur is so black and mystic. As long as Elisia remembers Mayra is here.

Candles burn everywhere and sometimes an old scent is there. Elisia pass her altar, full of candles, herbs, stones, her book of shadow, ...... and candles and even when it sleeps she feels the powerfull magic.

She pass the chamber of Amarant the elf who was there suddenly and never went away. She knows it is impossible but somehow Amarant let some flowers and a little waterfall grow in her room and in a flower she sees Amarant resting wrapped in a beam of sunlight.

And she is Elisia, the women in or from time and space. Living in the church. She is a magican woman, a witch. She possesses very old, anchient magic, sometimes so strong that it even scared her. But it belongs to her and she cant live without it. Using it she feels her existent magic sparkle...

When she is in her power she is a young woman, her hair black, her eyes full of timeless stars.... but her body aged when she use much magic. She then feel worn out and know its time to recharge again..


The church isn't that big. In fact it is small and only a few chambers are to find here. From the main door you come in a small hall with a old wooden bank with a candle burning. From there to the main centre. Then to a small gang where the small chambers are. A small backdoor, rarely used and hard to open ends this small church...

 

Sitting in front of her altar Elisia meditate, her hands on her old and thick book of Shadows. She used this book all her life and despite the strong material it was made of the phenomena of many use is shown. Tender moves her hand on the heavy book. She almost stroke it. Her protection spell is strong and contains the book and some stones, candles, knife and more....

She is low on herbs now, so next time she must collect them. Elisia hopes to find time for this when she gets her next assignment... She will ask Gar to guard her..

Slowly she rise. Walking to the wall and place her hand on the cold and ancient stones...Safely inside she thinks at the world outside. What a strange world it is. A world full of contrast. A world that has a lot of ugly in it but also beautiful places beyond compare. This world has it all. Magic, strange people, cities where people lives and works, abandoned places and here she is, standing above all this. She lives in the church where sometimes some kind of assignment comes on her path where she can makes a difference..

After the what most people called as World War 3, the run out of fuel people was forced to live so different. For days big explosions dominate the earth and left so much empty places behind. Factories don't work anymore. Ruined roads and huge areas where no one lives anymore. Ghost places everywhere. Abandoned people trying to make a living. Not much animals on Earth now. But also magic was created and born. It even become common. And the people try or just live here in the world where she was called to set everything right as she strongly believe. Together with Gar, the guardian of the church, Mayra and Amarant.

 

Outside the church there lies a graveyard, often covered in frog. Broken and crooked graveyards there from the ancient history. The time wiped often the names and data of those who are there. Somehow Elisia don't give them any attention.

 

Elisia rise up when she hears the clock. Quickly she put her stuff in the backpack. A opportunity to collect the herbs she needs. Looking at the cat she knew it will follow her. She puts the cloak on cause it was chilly in the halls and went to the place where the clock waits her for a new assignment. She smiles when she sees the fairy Amarant joining her. When this little light bringer leaves her room Elisia catch a glimpse of  beautiful flowers and a sparkling waterfall. That is the place of Amarant.

As usual Gar the gargoyle is already there. The clock ticks now slowly. Thick clouds covers the the clock glass and moves slowly around.

Slowly the bob moves around, ticking the moments away.

When everyone is here the clock tells slowly the story...

First what everyone sees is the destruction cause by one man. Its hard to see the dying and the suffering. He is dangerous. He has to stop...

but

~suddenly a crack and a thunder goes off in Elisia‘s head. It hurts so much. She sees the hall and Gar looking at the clock but also the door where she was –suddenly remembered- seeing the door slowly opened and the wind that comes to blow her away feels so icy cold. It hurts her maybe more.

Elisia sees the eyes of the man. She remembers his name: Cahira!

And all kinds of flashes runs through her mind and every single one cuts deep into her.

She hurting. Even screaming.

Meeting the man, seeing him for the first time

Underground. He saved her.

She finds herself in chains. And he has the key.

Touching the face of him...

She sees herself doing a ritual in this church. And suddenly she remembers this. She feels the floor and saw the protection circle to remember. How can she be forgotten this?

The feeling of dying is getting to her. Elisia felt on the floor and she don't feel that cause inside her a storm with lightning let her scream of the pain and the memories that let her body shake. She sees herself making love to the man and how hot that love was. She still feels it. Gasp for breath she mourns. His words “you will forget me” echoes in her ears. The side of the church and she lying in her bed and still feels his touch on her arm.

Slowly the thunder in her mind goes away. Elisia breath deep and opens her eyes. She is still in the hall and through her tears she sees everyone is watching her.

Somehow she managed to get up and she feels so sick of everyone. The details she don't know yet cause in her head everything is upside down and has no connection anymore. The only thing she can do is turn around and run away. Run as fast as she can.

Before anyone can react she is gone. She flies away from the church and she is so fast that she has a huge head start before they try to search her. But then its to late. She is gone and no one knows where she is and why she is running.

Elisia runs and runs blinding and when she cant move anymore she stops almost fall to a street that is empty and deserted.

Trembling she sits down and with her head into her arms she try to breath calm and try to think. But her head is one big turmoil. What must she do? She cant go back. No she wont go back.

She close her eyes and think of the church. Why must she kills the man who saved her? And why she remember him now? The pain is not that big anymore but she still feels it. Her eyes sees the stars above and the moon and she get the feeling that somehow the church let her forget. And so much memories came back when the clock show her the image of that man. Suddenly her door of memories opens and let her see.

Elisia whispering his name: Cahira!

And she slowly get up and hide her backpack under her cloak. She must find him and tell him she will be a part of his life now and forever. He will save her as he did before. He sets everything right.

With her mind set on him she does a location spell and walks to him.

 

While reaching her destiny she meet more and more people on the streets. Its cold and its raining. People walking by often laughing, hardly noticed by them Elisia walks to the bar where he must be. With a deep breath she opens the door and laughing, smoke and a lot of noise is meeting her. Trying not to get attention from others she gets in and her eyes search for the man. In a corner she finds him. He is playing a pool with some other men.

With only eyes for him she greets him with a smile. He looks up and she sees the surprise and wonderings in his eyes. His eyes moves around but that she missed somehow so glad she is founding him. “Hi... I am here!”

Every reaction she was expecting but not his whispering “go away”. He then continues his game like she isn't there.

So confused she turned around, hear him laugh with some other man and she disappears.

 

Cahira see her go. Not showing emotions he finished the game, admitting he lost and pay some money to the man. He ordered a drink and slowly drink it, responding on some greetings and scanning the bar. Everything seems normal. No one paid extra attention to the lady who was here before. He relax a bit, wondering what she is doing here and her words. What is going on?

He left some time later. Outside he scans the streets and let some people pass. Trying to get some clues he search the entree of the bar. He noticed she stands still a time before she moves. Even with his experience it is hard to follow her. It is now pass night and soon the sun will come.

He don't make much progress. It is quiet. Almost everyone sleeps. The rain has stopped but the wind is chilly.

 

Elisia walks on the street. Some music she hears. It comes from a bar.  A woman's voice sings a song that finds its way directly to her heart:

 

She listen to it and the song and the emotion touch her deeply. With some tears in her eyes she stands still and hear the music and sometimes she whisper a word. After the song is over Elisia catch a glimpse of the female singer of the band. She feels the true emotion in her and in the music she sings. Quickly she moves on with the words in her head.

What now? Where must she go? Feeling so strong and yet so week she is the only one on the streets. It is quiet. But a new day is coming and for her it is time to seek shelter and to think (but not now) what to do. She needs a home and soon! Elisia sees big buildings, empty, high and deserted. It is not finished. No one lives there but for her it means a temporary place where she can hide. Everyone who approaching she will see. A perfect look out.

On bare stairs she goes up. The bare walls, the empty rooms and finally she is on the top. There she sits down. With her knees bend she sits and feels the wind playing with her hair. For a long time she only sits. Feeling nothing. Finally she got to her senses and feel how tired she is. She left the only home she has. The church. And what now? Some lines of that song she heard plays in her mind.

Fed up with my destiny. And this place of no return. Think I'll take another day And slowly watch it burn. It doesn't really matter how the time goes by
 

 She knows she standing on a crossroad and don't know what way she must turn. Back to the church? Cahira wants that. Building a new home? And let the inside of what she once was go outside? Is that wise? She feels a turmoil of all kinds of emotions and she is in the middle of it. And the memories and all she did will come back if she will stay outside the church. Can she handle that? Can she face that? Somehow she knows it will be a touch road. Will she travel that? What will she finds? Or perhaps lost?

But on the other side. Back to the church? Where she starts to forget? Why she starts forget? What is the purpose of that? She still believes she did good work there. Help the helpless. But the church wants the man she loves, yes somehow she still do, killed. But she has a place there to sleep, eat and rest. It was her home.

Elisia closes her eyes. What to do now?

She thinks, feel a tear running down her cheek and knows she must come to a decision. But she cant. She feels so bone tired and it is like she walks at the end of her journey and to find out that nothing is there.

With her arms around her she is staring into the night where some blue and yellow already tells that the day is coming. She is whispering the song she heard to her and suddenly she rises knowing that Cahira is coming. But now she don't feel excitement or love. She don't feel nothing.

She turns her head and looks at the world below. Twinkling lights in the distance and an early sunrise. Then when he enters she slowly turns, looking at him. He is so different now. A part of her wants to run to him and seek shelter and love in his arms. But she only stand still and watch at him.

First he don't say nothing. Both know they scanned each other. Finally he turns the palm of his hand to her and then reach a bit to her. Behind her more colours are shown. It gives a magic look. “Please” he say quietly. “go back to the church and forget all about me. What we have can never be. If you stay here your enemies will find you and you have to face them” he stops talking, looking in her eyes and say softly “and more.”

She knows he knows more about her than she do. How much she don't remember?

Slowly she turns and look at the sunrise. Then she turns to him and say ”The church wants you dead. Why?” That surprises him.

For a moment there is silence and he says “you cant stay here or with me. Elisia you have a lot of enemies and when they find you, you properly don't survive that. You cant stay with me. We live in two different worlds. I am a warrior and you are a sorcerer. Maybe it is not a good option but please go back to the church where you are safe.”

She wants to answer but there isn't one in her head. Going back? No somehow she cant. Maybe it is her time now to find out. Or maybe not.

She felt so dizzy, unable to react. Some of her strength is lost and some of her black hair turns into white.

“and besides” Cahira continues. “the church wouldn't let you go. You are the best they had”

Right now he speaks riddles. She cant place the words. It sound so ...so strange.

Behind her it is getting lighter. More colours are showing.

She close her eyes and warns: “ Two are coming”. She feels they are not a treat. He slowly and with moves of a cat returns to the enter. His hand moves to his sword but then he relax almost invisible. “They are not a treat”

She nodded. She sense some power but it is not a great magical one.

Two girls are coming up. The climb has made them tired. Surprised they seen Elisia and Cahira.

“sorry” one of the girls, say with eyes on her friend. She hesitated, clearly not suspected the man. Shyly she looks away. She looks sweet with her shoulder long brown hair and hazel brown eyes. The other girl is taking the lead.  She smiles and her chocolate brown face lightened up saying ”I am Sundara. This is Anthea.” She looks at the man and Elisia and with her eyes resting on the sorcerer, clear cut against the sunrise. She continues. “we have an offer for you. Can you please stay with us for a while and teach us magic? We try to get you save and hide. No one will know you are with us.”

Cahira thinks and he likes the idea that Elisia is off of the street. “from which world you want to take her?” he ask.

“This world.”

He nodded. Good! Maybe that works till she all figured it out and go back to the church. With that in mind he regrets her leaving but it is the best thing for her. If she ever finds out....

Elisia thinks about it, scans the two girls she likes. She sense love between them but also some magic in them, mostly unawake. In their eyes she only see friendship to her.

“Okay.” She moves to the girls, shaking their hands. “I am Elisia”

While she joins the girls she left Cahira behind without any word. He hears them chat and turns to the sunrise. A spectacular sunrise starts with all kinds of pink, purple blue, orange and gold. Suddenly he feels alone and he missed Elisia. He don't know if he is lucky with her decision. He hopes she returns to the church next night. Today it is to late, the sunrise has started. He looks at the horizon and feels it will be a hot day again. Stars bleach and when he looks down he sees the three girls walking away from the building and from him.

 

In the light of the sunrise three woman are walking on the streets. They pass bars, abandoned buildings and reach finally an old area of the town. Elisia is tired. She don't know what to expect, she don't know what to think and just following the young ladies. Elisia is relieved to see they reach their destiny. In a small street with old buildings who are trying to reach to the sky the girls lives. Elisia looks up, sees a lot of windows and feel the history of the houses. She don't dislike it but don't go further into what she feels. She is too tired. She just following the girls into one of the houses and take the stairs that surely can use paint on the third floor where the apartment is located. It is silent now. Elisia sees a lot of doors in every hall and on one of them Anthea opened the door and shut and lock them behind them.

The place isn't that big and a lot of different kind of furniture are on it but it is cosy and in a corner of a room Elisia feels a glimpse of magic there. Sundara shows Elisia the toilet and the bad room and points to a larger bedroom. “Here we sleep.” Elisia sees a really girly bedroom. “We have to work in a few hours. So tomorrow you are alone. Please enjoy yourselves. You can watch TV or read...” The living room is shown; it is cosy and has warm yellow colours. Then a small room with a bed and a chair is shown to Elisia. Quickly Anthea makes the bed. “sorry we cant offer you more.”

“No it is good. I like the room.” Elisia looks at the green walls and some pictures of woman that hanged there. “Do you want to eat or drink?”

“No thanks. I think I like to sleep.” Hesitated the girls leaves the small room and Elisia closed the door behind them. Hearing the girls talking softly to each other, Elisia sits on the bed and feel how bone tired she is. Slowly she undress herself and goes to bed. She does her light off and stare at the walls. A blue light coming from the outside shines in her room though the curtains. In the gloom of that light Elisia hear the girls also going to bed. They have a few hours sleep before they work. She don't know what they do for a living.

She feels so tired and desperate longing for sleep but somehow she stare at the wall, seeing the morning light getting brighter and she tries to think. What must she do now? Totally blank she simply don't know. Back to the church? That is what Cahira wants. But she feels free and captured at the same time. That song is running in her mind. Fed up with my destiny. And this place of no return. Think Ill take another day.And slowly watch it burn. It doesnt really matter how the time goes by... And what she never think of, happened cause a little time later she sleeps....

 

Somehow it looked like a long time but on the other hand it looked like a few minutes when she woke up. It is daylight now and she shuts her eyes on the light that is too light now. After a few minutes she knows she is awake cause she hear the door shut down.

Elisia stand up. She walks with not much clothes on to the apartment and see she is alone. She finds a note where hasty written:

Elisia feels a strange headache. She walks to the whole apartment seeing and discovering everything. In the corner of the living room where the girls have their altar. She stare at it. Suddenly she feels cold. She take a shower and choose a old jeans and sweater from one of the girls. Her clothes she stores in the corner of her little room. Then she eats something, drinking a lot of coffee, walks in the living room and try the music or the television. Her headache last the whole day. On a bookshelf she finds some books that interesting her but also an empty notebook.

Curled up on the chair she close her eyes and a lot of memories are in her head. Some of the memories she cant place that well.

On every page she write what is coming in her mind. Memories of the church. Memories of the tasks she did and memories on Cahira. Sometimes she write slowly but sometimes so hastily and in the corner she try to get an connection somehow. Flipping on the book she feels so sick suddenly and runs to the toilet. After throwing up she sinks to her knees and start sobbing. Cleaning all she mess she made she goes again to the shower and start to cry hard and hurting....

Finally she stopped and when the girls are coming home with food they find her in the living room. At first the conversation is hard but after a while and a good TV show that Elisia likes at once, it is getting better. Outside the night starts and Anthea lit some candles and serve wine and cheese.

Then a silence is coming. Sundara stares in her wineglass and Anthea let her head resting on her arms. Elisia looking around the room and then to the girls. She feels the notebook nearby and with a softly voice she ask: “who am I?”

For a long moment that question hangs in the air and the girls exchange a look. Uncertain Anthea look at Elisia and she said: “Surely one of the mightiest witches, one who serve the church, one with a history and hopefully our teacher.”

Sundara place her glass on the table and with a look to Anthea and Elisia she tells: “We don't know much about your assignments from the church. We don't know much about the church. I have a bookstore and has many books there but the church is so ancient, almost legendary.. well there is not much information. I think it is one of the rarest thing that has its place in this world and the other world. But eh.” Sundara take a look on the notebook. “We are just at the beginning of the road that is calling Magic and you walk there for a long time. Last week with the start of the new moon we ask the universe to help to walk more, learn more about the magical road. We got the image of you and every day we did a spell to locate you and yesterday we where lucky. We found you.”

Elisia is suspicious but know Sundara spoke the truth. She just cant believe how innocent these girls are. In a small way she feels jealous.

“and we are glad you come with us” added Anthea.

Looking in a candle that is flickering Elisia thinks; how do we go from here? She nodded and try to figure out what to do next. She seems so lost now and know so little. All kinds of thoughts, begin to tormented her and she don't know what is wrong and what is right. She cant place much. The only one who knows more is Cahira but he wants her to go back to the church.

Still the question “who am I” spooks in her head.

 

Outside Cahira, hidden, watch the house. Sees how the girls go to bed and when the sunrise starts he left his place. Elisia didn't go to the church.

 

The next day it is raining a lot. It is cold and the wind blows to the streets. It is a dark grey day and if people don't have to go outside, they stay indoors.

Cahira walks to an empty factory. He is tired and the long walk in the rain has made him wet. But still he stands still for a time to check if he is followed. He knows he is safe but this habit of him saved him a couple of times. Then he goes inside, climb the half broken stairs up and pass some old and broken machines. It is a mess inside. Broken glass, doors are not here anymore and the windows that still whole are so dirty you cant hardly look through it. But he pass it quickly and he left no trace on the floor. Upstairs he goes and comes in a large and empty room where he goes to the corner of the room. Suddenly he is aware that hidden under a cloak it is Elisia. Hidden in the dark shadows she waits there for him.

He wants to know. “How do you find me?”

“A location spell” she speaks softly. “a secret one”

He just looked at her but she choose her place very well. Hidden in the shadows.

“Tell me” he replay.

“I hope you can tell me who I am.”

Cahira leans against the wall. Looking at her but he don't see much, he started. “The best way for you, for me and for everyone is that you go back to the church. Then you can start forgetting again. If you don't do this, the church needs a new sorcerer but before it can claim one it needs to kill you. There is not another way for them.”

He wishes to see how his words effecting her but she don't move. He continues: “If you don't go back, the church wants to kill you. You be haunted by your memories and believe me they are a burden to wear. And in your past before you went to the church you made some enemies. When you decided to stay they will soon find out and come after you. Those enemies are powerful and dangerous.”

Cahira don't say nothing more. It will break his heart to see her back to the church but it is the best way for her. She don't stand a chance.

Elisia bows her head and say barely heard:  “thanks.”

Then she walks away and Cahira looking at her in the cloak. His heart goes out to her. Suddenly she stops and returns to him. With most of her face hidden in the cloak she kisses him so softly he only feel her lips for a brief moment. Then she walks away and leaving him behind.

 

Sundara looks outside. Sitting in the window of her bookstore she wonders why she opened her store. Only one costumer bought something and for more than an hour she didn't saw a human. It rains hard now and inside she sit comfortable with a cup of coffee. Suddenly she feels sad without a reason. Her thoughts goes to her friend and that brings a smile to her face. They are together for four years now and still she is so in love. She scared when the bell rings. A costumer. She stands up and sees a women who is taking of the hood. “Elisia.” A real surprise for Sundara.

“Yes.” The witch remodels her hair and put out her cloak, leaving to dry on the chair. “I want to do some research. Can I do that here?”

“Ofcourse.” Hastily Sundara lit some candles on the large table while Elisia already walks around to seek some books. “Do you want coffee?” “Yes Please.”

While it is raining hard the two girls are sitting, reading and taking notes a soft candlelight where smothered by the grey of the rain.

Anthea peeks outside and see the rain falling on the windows of the office she works. She tucks her hair behind her ear and try to concentrate on the paperwork on her desk. But her mind goes out to last night and the magic Elisia brought... What a power has that woman. So much that deep in her heart it is frightened her... And still that power sleeps.. But it attacks also. She wishes she has that kind of powers. A small smile concur to her if she image how she will run this place. She will certainly punish Mister Beck, her boss. Often she is the victim of his anger... She wish she could find another job but doesn't have that luck yet...

She comes to the point of hating her job and getting a headache when she thinks of that... She cant find a solution to this... Sundara thinks she must get angry but that is one thing she never can do. Her eyes are looking at the window again. What kind of job suits her? With a deep breath she focus on the paperwork and grit her teeth. One day she will get it. One day everything falls into the place... From the corner of her eyes she sees Mister Beck passing by and don't come to her this time. Maybe she founds luck at her side...

A shadow pass on the window, barely noticed. Three woman are sitting at the table and there is a silence weights heavy.... Finally Elisia look to Sundara and Anthea. "What do you think?" she ask so softly... "If you think you are right and if that helps....." Anthea's voice sounds so uncertain. Sundara looks at her and then to Elisia and said "the main power must come from you. We are just supporting...." and she thinks ..just giving to much credit for what we do. The truth is we hardly doing iit.. "But you must be there when it happens to create the protecting circle...." Elisia looks at the girls and hopes they be there for her when it ends. Suddenly she hears something concentrating energy at the door she say clearly: "expositus and prepared for anything Elisia let the door opens and happiness will visit her face. "Mayra!"

A tiny black cat is there and comes inside. Elisia lift her in her arms and for minutes she is stroking the black fur. Sundara looks at them and say so softly no one can hear her: "we cant allow animals. It is forbidden." Finally Elisia turns to the girls and sit down, still with Mayra in her arms. "This is Mayra, a special cat who lives in the church. They see a cat, so old and tiny but the eyes of the cat is still twinkling. "She comes to visit me and supporting me."

Scared and wishing it will be over soon Sundara and Anthea make a circle on an empty spot. The wind blows almost their chanting away. The sky is dark grey and it looks it going to rain any minute. The place feels so awful.

Uncertain Elisia looks up to Cahira. His face shows nothing. Suddenly he comes to her and hit her hard in her face. The blood drops on her shoulder. She tear apart her dress a bit and leaves him without any word, without any look. Cahira watches her go, deep inside knowing he is lost without her.

Sundara and Anthea sees her coming. She is beaten and her hair and dress are so messed up and dirty. Blood on her face and dress she waits on a spot where fog appears. It is getting colder and Sundara and Anthea hide, fearing what Elisia will do. The Church appears and in the fog with the wind blowing Elisia stands with her hands as fists.

Only the silhouettes from the gravestones they see and only the lines of Gar, appearing from the church itself they see. Very scared Sundara and Anthea hides. They dont see how Elisia face the terror of death. They don't see the courage how Elisia walks inside, slowly moving her hands outside.

Elisia comes in the hall and knows Gar is now behind her. She sees the clock and with cold blue fire she aims for the clock and with all her magic she screams "effligo!" With a loud noise that is heard outside the clock blows up in many parts.

Outside Sundara and Anthea and from a distance Cahira looks and they hope and expect that the church blows up but that is not happening. Instead they see how the Church shrink and disappear in the fog. The smell of death lingers.

Nothing from Elisia. It went terrible wrong.

With big eyes Sundara looks up to Cahira, still looking at the empty space. "what is happened" she ask defeated. Cahira scans the area. All is gone now. The Church, the gravestones and Elisia. "She is lost now. Beyond reach. The Church will consume her...." The last words are barely hearing. Brusk he turns and left. Still with the smell of death in their noises the girls waits but nothing is happening. Nothing is returning. Sundara touches the cold hand of Anthea and say "lets go home" 

In silence they walk home. Feeling lost and trying not to think what happened to Elisia. Walking on the stairs to their home and opening the door they see the cat Mayra is sleeping on the bed where Elisia slept. With big eyes of sadness Anthea looks to Sundara


 




Beautiful flowers on the table. All kinds of fruit in fruitscale. Different kind of meat between big candles and all the loved ones are there. Elisia looks so happy. On the background there is music and everyone is smiling and laughing. Elisia smiles so happy. It is perfect. Glasses of red wine and bread makes it so complete. Cahira is telling a story and everyone listen to his smiling face. Anthea shows some magic sparkles. Elisia wink at her cause she is the one who teach Anthea that. Mayra purred at the end of the table and Gar stares at a candle. Sundara is singing so happily. Amarant is flying from flower to flower.

A very sweet young girl is sitting next to her. Elisia looks at her. With a star in her eyes the young girl points to the meat. Her words: "the meat is wrong" Elisia laughs and say; "dont be kidding." She looks down and her laugh freeze on her face. Many maggots are moving on the meatplate. A shriek makes her look up and suddenly she can't breath.

It was just a place for fun and joy and now there is nothing. No friends. No Cahira. No table. Elisia is in a very narrow and small chamber with no doors and windows. Only walls. She is alone. The music isnt there and no chair either. Elisia circles and she is alone. Captured in walls with no chance to escape...

She looks around and there is a mirror in front of her. It shows herself, so scared and so alone and so, so very small. Then it disappears and she sees a young girl, no more then 5 years old. She smiles and feels inside a feeling of luck. Suddenly Elisia screams and back away. The girl dies with a smile on her face in flames. She runs to the mirror and tries to do something, to save the girl but only the cold touch of the glass she feels. But when she looks at her hands it is so heavy burned and yet she doesnt feel the pain.

In totally shock Elisia crumbles in front of the mirror and inside her a big and black hole opens and it is if she fell and fell and fell in it.

She knows now...

She knows the luck to have a child. A little girl who was her whole world. She knows now (and that is hitting her like lightning) how she screams full of rage and black magic and a terrible loss that is way too big and that is feeding on her heart or what remains of it and she kills everyone who is in her reach and that is a lot.

With big eyes that dont see anything she lies on the ground, gasping of breath and feels that big black hole that grows and grows and kills her.....

Totally broken and lost she stare in nothingness.

 

Lost

Lost

Lost

Lost Lost
Lost   Lost Lost   Lost
  Lost   Lost    
Lost   Lost   Lost Lost
  Lost   Lost    

She took lives as if it was nothing. She lost her daughter and she kills everyone after her loss.

After that Gar found her and took her in the church and she thought she did good but still she remains a killer. She was trapped in the church and now she realize it was not the clock who is the church but Gar...

That takes her breath away.. Gar..

It could not. Not Gar. Gar is a gargoyle. But it is... Gar!

She had to destroy Gar... but it is too late now. Now she is the one who got destroyed.

Elisia looks at Gar who is suddenly there. His body of stone is indestructible. And she is breaking apart. She close her eyes and suddenly Amarant is there. This lovely little fairy is looking sadly to her. "What are you doing here?" Elisia ask -or does she only think about it? The next moment Amarant i gone. Why a fairy here in the church? Amarant should flutter outside. Not in the church. She seems captured.

"I shall tell you" the little fairy looks at her with aversion in its pretty face. "You make sure I am here. Once upon a time I belonged but I was curious to you and it was you who captured me and brought me into the church. Now I am a prisoner in this stone world."

"Sorry" Totally numb is Elisia now. She cant remember it. "Sorry, I didnt know..."

She cant stand the look of Amarant. "But why are you not going back to your place?"

"That dont exist anymore. You killed every fairy." Did she? She dont know. When she looks up she is alone and darkness appears from every corner of her prison and within a few minutes she cant see anything, feel only the cold stone everywhere.

Cahira leave the world without looking back. The cold of the wild world is hitting him hard but he welcomes it so he can't feel the pain in his heart. Without a sound he moves away from the border into the dark and when only a pale moon stands far on the horizon he walks slowly and on a mountaintop he stare at the world. Different kinds of grey and blue hides the wild lands. Some trees on the horizon has the silhouet of a grave. Cahira stand still and he tries not to think, not to feel. Elisia is lost, propely death by now, putting in a grave from the church who posses her magic now and leaving her stripped, less now than a mummy. But he can still feel her lips on his. He can still feel her body melting in his.

Cahira walks on, trying to forget, not to think about her. A bare path is bringing him futher into the wild and only when a pale light shows the first sign of the morning a whisper only stops him: Cahira.

He turns and leaning on a rock a representation comes out of the shadow. Even in the dark it seems a bright aura shines. Cahira smiles. "Meldiron." His old friend shakes his hand and soon they are sitting on a small fire when the sun is coming up.

"She captured your heart" After Cahira told about the wiccawomen of church Meldiron looks at his friend who stare without seeing anything in the flames. "and she broke it." add Cahira softly.

Meldiron doesnt say nothing. Any words he speak doesnt make feel Cahira better. The man and the lightpeople seeing the sun shows the world more and more that coming from the shadows. A new day is starting.

 

 

With every gone she is put herself in her grave. Elisia smiles with dark eyes to the women Elisia that is laying in the grave. With every shovell full of sand the laughther shrieks harder and harder and the weight of the sand gets heavier. Elisia burries herself. Gasping of air, fighting for live, somehow it doesn't help her. She tries to shout for help but every moment more sand is coming to her and there is no air left. She dies.

Locked up in her grave Elisia fights desperate for herself. For living. But all her attemps are useless. Her death is eating her alive.

   

The last thing she remembers is the eyes of a cat.

 

Two very small figures standing at the edge of the circle of black burning candles. Within only the contour of the church so vague in the fog...

With sand and water the plate of the clock is made within the big circle.

A small whirlwind is coming from the point the old black cat sits. Mayra!

Only her eyes are moving, blinking.

Two very small women are holding hands chanting "Finem. Terminas. Extumum." Sometimes they say it softly but sometimes louder.

The whirlwind is moving faster around Mayra and soon she is hidden behind dust. It seems the wind is getting thick and suddenly it is getting dark and Sundara and Anthea are holding each other, getting so afraid but still they chanting "Finem. Terminas. Extumum." Some lightning bolls are hitting the centre and suddenly when the dark is getting darker and even the girls can't hear the words they are chanting. Anthea sees the black candles are no longer burning and she hesitates to light them again but the whirlwind are getting faster and faster and spinning around.

Finem. Terminas. Extumum.

Finem. Terminas. Extumum.

Something heavy, something indestructible is there. They cant see it but they can feel it. Holding on to each other Anthea and Sundara still chant their words. The sand almost blow them away. They feel the burning sand around them anywhere.....

Suddenly a crack and a big blow and the girls feels the stone blow away. The sound is so inmense. Falling on earth they cling to each other and feel the stone hitting hard on the ground around them. So scared they are now. The violence is so inmense. It is hurting their ears. But the silence that follow is so still hurting more. It takes minutes before they dare to watch.

Elisia can't tell anything what happend. They found her totally in shock and only with big trouble they get her to the small bedroom.



The world of Elisia

Laying in her room Elisia let time passing by. When she gets food she eat. When the girls brings her to the shower she wash herself. When Sundara tries to talk Elisia stare without any expression to the window, not responsing. When Anthea comes home after a day work she finds Elisia still in her small bedroom and Anthea is certain Elisia stays the whole day there. The girls tries to give some action into the women but nothing seems to reach Elisia.

In front of the tv the girls looking at each other and then looking to Elisia who stare to the screem without seeing nothing. "Nothing helps." Sundara looking at the women who seems so old and small. "She looks like a robot." Anthea nodds. "She don't respond on anything." She looks Elisia in her eyes but not any reaction is coming. "And that is for days now. I wonder if she is still in there."

Silence. Sundara looks to the tv. "Let's go out. Valerie is playing tonight."

It is crowdy and the lights are brightly. Between Sundara and Anthea Elisia walks and there is no turning back for her. In the corner of the pub Sundara is getting some drinks and Anthea explain: "Valerie is singing and she has a warm and great voice." She sees that Elisia don't listen. The eyes of Elisia is looking for an escape but the way out is blocked by too many people. Then a big yell and a young women on stage starts to sing.

Then suddenly Elisia reacts. She remembers the voice singing a song that she listens a long time ago. That voice and that song hit her in her heart. And now again. Valerie is singing another song but her voice is reaching Elisia again. Unaware that tears are running on her cheeks, Elisia is standing in the corner and listens, absorbs the music that Valerie and her band is performing. The drums, the gitarplaying and the background voices, the bass and the piano, everything finds the way into the heart of Elisia that feels alive and the voice of Valerie let's her feel alive again. Sundara and Anthea leave her alone.

The girls are the last who leave the pub. Quickly they are going home. It is raining softly and the wind blows chilly through the streets. So tired the girls are going to bed and Elisia hears them going away to their work, still leaving some bread for Elisia.

Only with a few hours of sleep Elisia walks slowly to the livingroom and she finds some music which she starts to play. She cries that day for all she lost. For the first time she feels alive since she escaped the destiny of the church. For the first time she let her tears for the lost she so deeply feels. She is looking at the clock and knows she is alone for hours. That time is hers to spend. Elisia eat her bread and pick up paper and pen and stair for hours to the blank paper. Sometimes she is drawing some lines. Once she write Mayra on the paper. She fragments the paper so tiny where the simple drawing shows a church.

Sitting in the office Anthea works hard to update the data base. There is a lot of work to do. A huge headache creeps from behind her eyes. So tired she rubbed her eyes. Her headache will be much worse, she fears. She worries a lot these past weeks. Worries about Elisia who looks dead. What they do wont help. She dont do anything. Anthea looks at the screen. All what she typed dance around in her computer. She tries to focus and then the screen returns to normal. When she wants to type the next alinea suddenly Mister Beck shouts at her "working!" Anthea jumps. She didnt expecting him, noticing him. "You doing this month a lot of overtime." Suddenly Anthea freeze. She feels it inside and her headache turns black inside her. "Last week your work was so bad....." The shouting of her boss let her ears rings. She stands and look at him and her voice sound so strange as if it isnt hers. "No!" First Mister Beck doesnt hear her. The next line is more stranger "I quit!" On that moment she means it. She says it again, so terminated: "I quit!" Anthea get her bag and put her belongs into it. She gets her coat and left the office. When she is outside she breaths deep. Suddenly she feels so free. Suddenly no headache. She quits!

Anthea sits on a stone wall and looks at the ugly building who hold people prison during worktime and sometimes more. Yes, she quits. She is free. But suddenly the bravery left her, leaving her shaken. Oh god what has she done? She quits. No job. No money! And her headache is back and suddenly Anthea sees only flashes around her. It is cold but she doesnt put on her coat. Trying not to shake she is so desperate. They need the money. Sundara cant support her. The bookstore pays bad. Bitting on her lip she knows she must go back and offering her apologizes to her boss. But the courage left her and fear stands in the way. No, not that. Ten minutes ago she was typing and now she dont have a job. The day is still early. She cant go home. Anthea gets so cold now she stand up and put on her coat. Her legs still shaking and she starts to walk. She cant go home now. First she needs another job. But there are a lot who is looking for jobs. Without any direction she walks, trying to get the problem solved.

Looking back it seems she walks for hours. Dont dare to come home or to go to Sundara. When she is getting hungry and tired Anthea stops and looks around. She recognize this part of the town. It is close to her home. She wonders how late it is and decided to go home. Suddenly she sees a young girl hiding behind a dumpster. Anthea looks around. Nobody to see. She walks to the dumpster and stand still, next to a dirty wall. Her heart is breaking when she sees the little girl hiding in the trash. Cautious she moves to the girl and say softly: "Hi I am Anthea. Can I help you?" The girl only tries unsuccesfull hiding but her eyes is fixed on Anthea. Carefully, very carefully Anthea reach her hand to the girl and sees the hesitating but the little girl puts her small and filty hand in Anthea who feels the luck into her shiver. "Can I bring you where it is safe?" Anthea almost whisper. "Home?" This time the little girl brings her speedly to a place she never thought it existed.

Sundara pacing from door to window and look for the umpteenth time to the street outside. "Where is she? She should home hours ago." Elisia worries to but doesn't show it that well. The food is waiting on plates, cold and forgotten. "I think I walk again to her work..." She puts on her coat again. "You did that twice" Elisia points out.

Suddenly they jump cause they hear a key in the lock. Anthea comes inside. Sundara is hugging her, deeply shaken. "You are home." she whispers. "you are allright" "Hey, sorry I am so late but I have so much to tell you" She hugs Anthea back and involve Elisia too into the big hug.

Then she took of her coat and a few minutes later they eat their cold food with wine and then Anthea starts to tell: "I quit my job and was also fired. Suddenly I had enough bad mouthing taken from Beck. Didn't know what to do until I stumbled to a frightened little kid who took me to her world. A small shelter so poor and overcrowded with only an old women who take care of these children the best she can. Some of the children goes to school and some she try to teach herself. She gives them food and try to dresses them the best she can. Some of the children has one of two parents who cant maintain them. Some of the children don't have family or that is unknown. And the children often seen too much..." She stops and move her almost empty plate. Looking around as if she seen it for the first time, the familiar furniture and the faces of her friends. "Oh what are we rich" She hugs her friends. Then she took her wineglass and look into Sundara's beautiful eyes. "I took the job. From 7 am till 6 pm I will work there from Monday to Saturday. The hours are more but the money stays about the same. And meeting the children and that lady I want to try to get some more money for all of that house." She tells more about the children and the lady who take care of them. One story after another, sometimes finished but often switch she tells and it is so late when they go to bed. In bed Sundara takes her friend in her arms. "Is it not too much for you?" she ask softly. "It will be heavy and you meet a lot of ugliness and it will sometimes be so hard." "But the payback time will be counted too and here I can do good, here I am wanted and it is so much better than my last job." Sundara tells nothing, she didn't know how bad that was for Anthea. She only hugs and rocks her.

Elisia hear the girls talk, expectially Anthea after they go to bed. When the day breaks it is getting silent and only a few hours later the alarm goes off and she hear Anthea standing up. In the silence of her little bedroom Elisia thinks about the broken pieces of her life. She thinks of Cahira. Where is he now? The church that is gone and suddenly she miss Mayra who offered herself to keep Elisia alive. Elisia thinks of her former life. Once she had a daughter. Elisia turns and staring at the wall. She feels she must go back to the other world to see what is left and what mess she made. This world she likes but the other world is the one she belongs.

Elisia hear Anthea standing up and she dresses herself quickly. Today she will help Anthea.

It is very quiet on the street and the two women are walking quickly cause it is not that safe for them and then a busy day begins. Even with Elisia's help there is so much to do. The childeren must get up and go to school or staying home and Elisia sees how broken childeren can be. She must admit that Anthea is fantastic and working so hard. But when she is home Anthea is so tired she goes to bed early. The love of the two girls still standing strong. Elisia search for Cahira but cant find him anywhere. He must have gone back to the other world. It is getting time she follows.
But when the decision is made it is still hard to follow the action. Elisia knows she is making excuses for not going. When she can she wants to help Anthea with her work or cleaning the house or sitting in the store of Sundara trying to learn more from the other world that is called in this world the Wild World. And that surely is, even Elisia knows but she is forgotton much. The world where Sundara and Anthea lives is called the Real World and it is much smaller than the Wild World where everything can (and will) happend. On an evening she ask if the girls want to go to the Wild World but till her disapointment they say no. Some days are passing and suddenly when Elisia wokes up she knows she must go. She say farewell to Sundara and wish her well. She promise to come back. Together with Anthea she walks to the one and only border and sees the people crossing over. The day is just started but it is already busy. Elisia hesitates and Sundara sees that. "You can always come back. You dont have to go" "I must" Elisia nodded. She gives Anthea a big hug and cross the border, dont looking back.
 
The Wild World
Here she walks now, wondering what she is doing here. She finds the cross over hard and difficult to pass the border. All the people, so crowdy and so full of rules and physical examination she underwent is hard to think back. What was she lucky with the church who was the only border crosser without this embarrassing inspections. But she is there; the Wild World; a nature with all kinds of creatures and even the unexpected can be expected. All the colors she sees are hurting her eyes. Comparing to this the real world has only grey and dark colors. She walks on a road and sees sometimes a city or houses or barns and other creatures. What is she doing here? She has not much food and only a blanket, not a home or even a roof and she don't know the way here or where she is going. She only feels her magical spark in her hands and knows that she feels not that worn out. In her bag she feels the existing her magical possessions and it is if they supporting her. But still she feels the doubt of leaving a home -even it wasn't hers- to a world she has no home or destiny. Perhaps she was here and did do a lot but this is so unknown to her and she don't know where to go. Elisia stops and looks around. The road shows a village and she is walking away from that. Was that a good choice? She wanted to be alone but perhaps she found shelter there. Trying to make a plan cause the night will come soon she must find a place to sleep. And her legs aches. She isn't use to walk that long. Some trees in a sloping landscape with rocks and meadows and this road she walks on twisting to the horizon. The sun is shining but she feels cold and seek for a shelter place. Leaving the road she walks through the grass to a tree by a small river that runs from a distance. She is alone and it seems that everyone left in the city and perhaps it was the wisest choice she must taken. But she wanted to be alone and now she is but she feels so lost. Elisia walks to the tree by the river and she is relieved to get there. Finally. She drops her bag and scans the area. Nothing. Not even a bird. Elisia eat the spare food she took from the Real World and put a blanket on her watching the water. It is only a small stream and it seems to end further. What must she doing now? What must she going now? Elisia stare to the bag. The best thing she can do is to go to where the trouble started, to where she lost her daughter but she hasn't a clue where that is. She is alone in this world and even Cahira cant help her. He could be miles away from here.
She is cold when the night is coming. She is tired but cant sleep. Elisia just stared to the water that lightens a long time after the sun is down and the stars are coming. She feels a women alone in the world and there is a big loss in her that never will been filled.
When the sun is coming up it found an empty spot to the tree near the river. Elisia left the place hours ago and walking to the stream and to the meadow she left the road and walked with the light of the moon and stars across meadows to an open forest. The only living creatures she sees are scaring rabbits. Lying nearby a rock she finally sleeps so tired and cold and the sun just reach the highest level.

 



Cronicles from Elisia

 

Acknowledgments

 Starring in the World of Elisia:

Elisia: a magical woman, a very powerful witch with ancient magic. The story of her life starts when she is leaving (trying to leave) the church. With flashbacks she will know more about her history.

The church:

Amarant the elf: lives in the church. Creates its own paradise in the grey chuch.

Mayra: a black and a very old cat. 

Gar: a Gargoyle who belongs to the church. A gargoyle can only move in the night. Sunlight stones him.

the Church: a church that can move between time and space. Through Elisia it sets things and people right. But why the gravestones outside? What kind of part does they play?

Outside the church:

Cahira; a powerful warrior. He moves in the two words. It was him who saved Elisia when she was hurt and he find the way to her heart.

 

Meldiron: one of the Lightpeople and Cahira's companion for a long, long time. They share a long lasting friendship. Meldiron roaming the wild world and it seems rarely he visit his people. Meldiron has the ability to cure and knows all about healing herbs. He has also some knowledge in magic, certainly nature magic and he has special ways to get along with all kind sof creatures. Meldiron knows all about light effects and illusions.

 

Anthea: a sweet, shy girl who sets her first steps on the path of magic.

Sundara, girlfriend of Anthea. Also a starter in the world of the magic. She owns a bookstore.

 

Chapter guide

A song Elisia heard while she was walking on the street is Beautiful Goodbye from Amanda Marshall. From 1996.

Some lines in her diary I left out. This is the complete lyric.

Fed up with my destiny
And this place of no return
Think I'll take another day
And slowly watch it burn
It doesn't really matter how the time goes by
Cause I still remember you and I
And that beautiful goodbye

We staggered through these empty streets
Laughing arm in arm
The night had made a mess of me
Your confession kept me warm
And I don't really miss you, I just need to know
Do you ever think of you and I
And that beautiful goodbye

When I see you now
I wonder how
I could've watched you walk away
If I let you down
Please forgive me now
For that beautiful goodbye

In these days of no regrets
I keep mine to myself
And all the things we never said
I can say for someone else
Cause nothing lasts forever, but we always try
And I just can't help but wonder why
We let it pass us by

When I see you now
I wonder how
I could've watched you walk away
If I let you down
Please forgive me now
For that beautiful goodbye

This is her official page!

 

Quotes

The first line to a lover to say: (Elisia) Hi... I am here!

His reaction (from Cahira): “go away”

Cahira: What we have can never be.

Cahira: "you stay here your enemies will find you and you have to face them and more.”

Cahira: "I am a warrior and you are a sorcerer."

Cahira: "You are the best they had!"

Cahira: "from which world you want to take her?”

Elisia: “who am I?"

Sundara: We are just at the beginning of the road that is calling Magic and you walk there for a long time. 

Elisia: "I hope you can tell me who I am.”

Cahira: “The best way for you, for me and for everyone is that you go back to the church."

Cahira: "You be haunted by your memories and believe me they are a burden to wear."

 

 

Magic & Spells

 Behind the Story

  It took me a long time to come up with the name Cahira. For a period the name Sundara was meant for Elisia The bookstore from Sundara really exist. You can found it in the heart of Paris!

Sources and Thanks

in the world of Elisia

 

A lot of scripts I got from:

No longer on the internet

The images from the church and the graveyard I have from internet. For years I have it and dont know the maker. In 2005 I was in Martoch in England and also with the old yew from Crowhurst standing there next to the church and these churches inspired me much.

Much is inspired in my mind, soul and heart.

Collected a lot of "maybe useful" tubes and pictures for some years now. Source unknown. A lot is coming from psp lovers.

Song Beautiful Goodbye is from Amanda Marshall.

The bookstore picture is a real bookstore in Paris. I have the picture from internet. Unfortunally I didnt see it with my own eyes..

Streetpicture is also from internet.