About my Life and Personal thoughts

   Suddenly I wanted a diary. So here it is.
Now I live alone now in a small appartment and often I feel ok. With the old guinea pigs and 3 old cats I have a wonderful but small family. There is love here. With my work as a cabdriver and really wonderful friends I feel happy and loved.

TheaThis is Thea, and old and deaf cat. I took her on Januari into my home. She soon settled in and I am glad to tell she is a part of the family now.  Only when Thea wants to take a nap on the couch Oma, the oldest cat starts to nag about this. She thinks she owns the couch.

A lot of websets are gone. My website on bravenet hold on for some years but it is gone now. All what I did for wosib and guestbookbutterflies and garden of friendship are gone. Pity. Really the end of a period.
Beech den Bramel Vorden
On Monday March 5 I was visiting some old trees and stopped also by this old beech in Vorden, a lovely place in the Netherlands. The tree was very special to me and I was hurt when I noticed he would die about ten years earlier. This tree was so friendly and seems to surrounded by people. You had always a smile on your face when you visit this special tree.
It is still special and unique and big in a lot of ways but I miss the spirit in the tree.

March 31
What happend to the people who lived here? Why a farm or a house leave to decay? When I see houses like this I always wonder about the people who lived here.

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Photo's April - May

With great sadness I have to tell you that Sita crossed the rainbowbridge. Only 8 years old. Feline immonodeficiency virus. I will miss him terrible

A new Regina

Yesterday I spend a lot of time by the barber. From blond hair to grey, with some pink and purple and peach colour in it


July 21
For 3 weeks now I have a new cat, so really shy and scare. I still didnt make a great photo out of him but I am trying. His name will be Taz.
Here in the Netherlands it is dry for months now. And hot. It is so dry and animals, plants and trees are suffering. And it takes weeks before they expect rain. Oh please let it rain

September 4
At times I think of my life, the people in it. Friends come and go. I wonder how I grow old. Will I be the same inside? It must be terrible to not knowing who you are. Where I stand in 2019?

October 12
i was walking in my beloved forest. it been a while. the day was lovely and ths sun was hot. that was so rare for october. many years ago i walked with my german shepperd sheena and i still remember the wooden sticks she drag with her. often i let her pass but sometimes i feel the stick in my legs. i still miss here.
some paths are gone but the trees still remember me and the dogs

November 7
A new cat Roza Lana
October was the month the tiny sweetheart Roza Lana came into my life. She was a straycat and she is so friendly and greeting me every time when I enter my house. She has the softest fur I feel. I hope to make some better photo's of her. With only 1 tooth she makes a mess about her food. The shelter named her Lana cause that is what she propaly called in her life but I named her Roza

I started with Thea the lovely deaf cat and I close this diary with it. She is gone now.
The last picture of Thea
 I feel a great loss and it still hurts.
When I take a cat from the shelter it is old and often not healty. I know. But still it hurts when I have to let go and it seems to get worse when I am older.
She was fighting till the end but her body gave up. Her tumor burst at the end. Often I hate the word Hope cause it drags you further and futher and it brings no solution. I will never forget you, Thea. The old and deaf and sick cat who loves to get her hugs and food over and over again.


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