Already 2009 is
almost two weeks
old. The start
of 2009 marks
the break from
my computer and
it took me a
week to get it
working. Now I
am updating and
installing...
If you read
this, please
make backups!
I have so much
to do and don't
know where to
start.
2009 starts with
cold. I think in
the last 12
years we didnt
have that much
cold. Rivers
where frozen and
the snow lies on
the streets and
in our garden..
Now it slowly
melting but it
takes days
before
everything is
gone..
januari 18
The last days in
the news. Obama
comes to the
white house. I
am glad he is
president and
hope he does a
lot of good.
Obama starts
with huge
trouble. America
and the rest of
the world face
big crisisses.
This year we
have the worst
in our country
(Holland)
Already I have
big trouble....
And everyone is
glad the plane
landed safetly
on the Hudson
River. Everyone
was calm and
there was no
panic.
Wonderful!
Februari 4
This month we
celebrate our
first Year of
Fluttering by
Guestbook
Butterflies!
A year ago I was
thrilled, afraid
when I start the
adventure but it
went well! A lot
of Guestbooks to
sign. We have
now 5
Butterflies and
I hope to get
some more but
the Butterflies
are so wonderful
and faithful!
Februari 20
When februari
started I got
the flu and
continue to
work. I healed
slowly and a
week later (now)
the flu is
visiting me
again. Not that
heavy as the
first time but
not feeling well
either.....
Just placed
online the new
set for the
Guestbookbutterflies
and after some
weeks of
struggle and
trying, trying
and trying I
feel very happy
about this.
Fido my red cat
is now so sweet
and he wants
always with me.
On his age he
gets not that
frightend
anymore and stay
mostly inside. I
must say it is a
cold winter so I
think in spring
and summertime
he will be a
gardencat again!
April 3
Spring is begun
and at first the
weather is
great. All kinds
of first flowers
are flowering
now: the
daffodils, the
Muscari
armeniacum and
all kinds of
green pops up.
As always a
celebration and
a returning
welcome from my
plants to me:-)
Just finished
the new
homepage.
Only I must
think of a new,
much better
written poem on
the first index
page....
Hope you like
it!
April 25
Meanwhile the
garden is green
and some flowers
are flowering
and the rest
follow soon. As
every year it is
a return of old
friends.
There is a lot
of work in the
garden now.
And I must
say.....it has
been weeks now I
worked at the
Elisia story. I
miss it but
don't find any
time to add some
more. I must
also carefully
think what I
write next.
Hope somehow I
can write
more...
I want to watch
the DVD version
of Lord of the
Rings.
May 22
In parts I
watched the long
versions of Lord
of the Rings. So
great. Every
year I read the
books and now
the first one:
Fellowship of
the Ring is
waiting now.
Now I read the
last pages of
Anne Spoerry,
she worked as a
flying doctor in
Kenia. Great
woman, great
story!
And sorry to
say: I didnt
wrote yeat
something more
on Elisia...
June 9
this is so
funny:
and this remind
me of the nag
nags Zebra Finch
- Taeniopygia
guttata - we have
this is funny
too
June 29
She is still
living in my
head Elisia but
so far I didnt
write more on
her story. I
added my
booklist and the
songs that are
playing in my
head. Hot and
tropical weather
will visit the
Netherlands in
the next days.
August 2
This I received
from a great
friend LM
100 WAYS TO
BE HAPPY
1. Never put
yourself
last.
2. When you
extend a
helping hand
to one
person, be
careful not
to kick
someone else
in the
teeth.
3. Always
own a pair
of old,
faded jeans.
4. Count
your
blessings
every day.
5.
Acknowledge
your
successes
along with
your
downfalls.
6. Burn the
candle that
has been in
storage for
the last two
years.
7. Strive
for
progress,
not
perfection.
8. Remember,
the voice
telling you
that you
cannot do
something is
always
lying.
9. At least
once a day
sit and do
nothing.
10. Don't
close your
heart so
tightly
against
life's pain
that you
shut out
life's
blessings.
11.
Celebrate
all your
birthdays no
matter how
old you get.
12. Examine
your life
for
limitations
and ask
yourself why
you put them
there.
13. Plant a
tree, pull
weeds, or
get your
hands dirty.
14. Diminish
your wants
instead of
increasing
your needs.
First is right,
second not. My
birthday is now
behind me and I
just give my
presents
(candles,
chocolate,
clothes,
flowers) their
new location. I
start the new
year with being
unemployment and
that hurts. I
never thought I
lost my little
children's ride
to school. When
I found out I
was really sick.
Had my life
build around
this job.
And now? Looking
for work again.
Am old and not
much education.
It is still
crisis time. It
is so hard to
keep your
spirits up when
there is not
much choice and
the bills are
coming...
September 19
Autumn has
arrived and it
bring golden
colors. I didn't
have the time or
energy to see it
but I will do it
next week. I
want to walk in
my beloved
Forest again and
take a long
walk. Being in
the circle of
work, worries
and bills and
unable to see
what happened
next week to me
makes me tired
and more worries
are coming. But
somehow I can
feel sometimes
the strength I
have. It is my
power now and I
must trust it
and get a hold
on work and
myself.....
Drop a
pebble in
the water:
just a
splash, and
it is gone;
But there's
half-a-hundred
ripples
circling on
and on and
on,
Spreading,
spreading
from the
center,
flowing on
out to the
sea.
And there is
no way of
telling
where the
end is going
to be.
Drop a
pebble in
the water:
in a minute
you forget,
But there's
little waves
a-flowing,
and there's
ripples
circling
yet,
And those
little waves
a-flowing to
a great big
wave have
grown;
You've
disturbed a
mighty river
just by
dropping in
a stone.
Drop an
unkind word,
or careless:
in a minute
it is gone;
But there's
half-a-hundred
ripples
circling on
and on and
on.
They keep
spreading,
spreading,
spreading
from the
center as
they go,
And there is
no way to
stop them,
once you've
started them
to flow.
Drop an
unkind word,
or careless:
in a minute
you forget;
But there's
little waves
a-flowing,
and there's
ripples
circling
yet,
And perhaps
in some sad
heart a
mighty wave
of tears
you've
stirred,
And
disturbed a
life was
happy ere
you dropped
that unkind
word.
Drop a word
of cheer and
kindness:
just a flash
and it is
gone;
But there's
half-a-hundred
ripples
circling on
and on and
on,
Bearing hope
and joy and
comfort on
each
splashing,
dashing wave
Till you
wouldn't
believe the
volume of
the one kind
word you
gave.
Drop a word
of cheer and
kindness: in
a minute you
forget;
But there's
gladness
still
a-swelling,
and there's
joy
a-circling
yet,
And you've
rolled a
wave of
comfort
whose sweet
music can be
heard
Over miles
and miles of
water just
by dropping
one kind
word.
Got these
wise words
from Mary!
VIOLET
You surround yourself with art and music and are constantly driven to express yourself. You often daydream. You prefer honesty in your relationships and believe strongly in your personal morals.
A few months
ago I had a
great job
with
schoolchildren
from an age
or 2 till 5.
I grew so
into it and
I love doing
this. But a
lot of rides
like this
stopped and
mine also.
Now I work
in factories
and on
Saturday
nights I
still have
my taxi
rides trying
to get ends
meet which
isn't easy
at all these
days..
I have 20
years of
work for me.
And still I
don't know
what I want
and can
choose for
work. Don't
have a high
education
and
A friend
tells me.
First go to
dreams. What
kind of job
do you
really want.
Go to a
place of
dreams and
dream about
your
choices.
Then be
realistic.
Find out if
you can
realize this
and what is
needed for
that. Then
coach
yourself. Do
you need an
education?
If you done
this then
make a
choice.
Okay...
think it is
a good
advise but
will it
work?
November 9
Today it was
a grey day
with
sometimes
rain. Today
I decided to
walk in my
forest. Glad
I did. When
I arrived I
regretted my
decision to
leave the
camera at
home. I
wanted to
walk in
autumn and
see with my
own eyes
instead of
the camera
but the
yellow,
brown and
red leaves
was so
beautiful.
I
made
a
long
walk
and
saw
the
beautiful
trees
and
walked
almost
played
with
the
leaves
on
the
ground
and
I
was
alone
in
the
forest.
Glad
it
didn't
rain
the
time
I
spend
in
the
forest.
It
was
a
relaxing
time
and
wonderful
to
walk
in
the
forest
again.
Why
do I
always
wait
so
long
to
take
another
walk?
With still
the grey sky
I drove
home, my
head still
without
answers but
more
relaxing
then I
started this
day
November 24
As a temporary employee you see
a lot of (in my case) factories.
In one (the closest where I
live) it was great. I was
treated as a person. I stayed
there for two weeks. The last
one was terrible. The payment
was so bad and I was treated as
a number, almost as a slave. I
stayed there three days and that
was too long! Way to long!
Now at the end of this month
there is not much work here. I
only have the weekends to drive
the taxi. I search for temporary
jobs cause there are bills to be
paid. But so far nothing. I only
work at weekends as a cabdriver,
the nightshifts...
I had some ideas to get me a job
but needed money for education.
I don't make it.
What now? When I think of it I
get sick in my stomach...
December 13
Have now a temporary job. Don't know how long it
last. A part time job in a huge store. And
saterdaynights I do the taxi.
Today I restore the pages from Wosib (Women of
Strenght and Inner Beauty) and those memories
came up. I saw some parts of my old homepage and
I miss that time. Wosib is no longer but it was
my door to the net many years ago. I believe in
2002!
A few weeks and then it is 2010!
December 24
Soon and 2009
is over. I so hope 2010 will be much better. My
job in the warehouse is soon over and I regret
it so much. Finally a place I feel at home and
then this message that came out of the blue and
hit me hard! With me a lot of other people are
in the same situation.
December
31
Listening
to the top 2000 (when I can) and thinking so
much, worrying about others and about mee too
and switching soon 2009 for 2010... I feel
melancholic.
Now I say
goodbye to this wonderful diary webset too.
Saying goodbye and welcomic the new things...
I so hope
2010 will bring some great sparkles and for me a
good, steady job! I so need that...
Thank you
for listening. I just hugs some things and let
it go with a tear in my eye..
Hugs
Regina
Paintings:
This features a
compilation of
more than one of
Penny Parkers paintings.
